life as it seems.

relationships. that's the most confusing word in my dictionary as of now. i don't know what to think of them. i'm thinking of the romantic kind. i've never really been involved in one. i'm a hopeless idealist and an incurable romantic. my first crush happens to be Napoloeon...hehe...the picture of him as a young artillery officer mingled with his strategic military exploits really enchanted moi. hehe. well, as of now i'm a bit confused. i've had enough of falling in love with fictional, historical and celluloid characters...{well, not quite, i was raving about jake gyllenhaal and george gordon{ L.B.} all day today}...i don't know. maybe i'm very fastidious. that's what others think. i don't really think so. erm...i don't let it on when i like someone, who might even like me back. i guess i can come across as pretty unreadable. but oh well, that's just me i suppose. do i regret the way i am ? maybe. sometimes. it's not like i havn't had my share of healthy real life crushes! i don't like to get over people too easily. it doesn't harm me, in fact i quite like lingering over my feelings. okies, now i'm rambling.